Summer of the Dead: New Excerpt

Summer of the Dead by Julia Keller is the 3rd mystery in the Bell Elkins series about the County prosecutor after she's returned to her Appalachian hometown in West Virginia (available August 26, 2014).

High summer in Acker's Gap, West Virginia—but no one's enjoying the rugged natural landscape. Not while a killer stalks the small town and its hard-luck inhabitants. County prosecutor Bell Elkins and Sheriff Nick Fogelsong are stymied by a murderer who seems to come and go like smoke on the mountain. At the same time, Bell must deal with the return from prison of her sister, Shirley—who, like Bell, carries the indelible scars of a savage past.

In Summer of the Dead, the third Julia Keller mystery chronicling the journey of Bell Elkins and her return to her Appalachian hometown, we also meet Lindy Crabtree—a coal miner's daughter with dark secrets of her own, secrets that threaten to explode into even more violence.

Acker's Gap is a place of loveliness and brutality, of isolation and fierce attachments—a place where the dead rub shoulders with the living and demand their due.

Chapter One

The flat-roofed shack was situated along a country road sunk deep in summer darkness, the kind of darkness that comes after a day of brash sunlight and thus seems more intense and deliberate than ordinary nightfall. The lights in the small tavern made it look, by odd contrast with that shadow-blackened road, like a living thing, shimmying and caterwauling and ready to leap up and lurch away, leaving behind a shallow hole and the sullen stink of piss.

Bell Elkins knew it was an illusion. She knew the only real motion came from the quivering lights in four porthole windows across the building’s front and from the ugly thuds of the live band’s bass beat, a percussion that hit like a fist on the heart. Yet she hesitated anyway, remaining for a few more minutes in her vehicle at the edge of the dirt-ridged parking lot. Other cars were stuck at crazy random angles, abandoned by their drivers with don’t-give-a-damn nonchalance.

It was 3:42 A.M. on a sticky-hot Saturday night—no, Sunday morning—in the middle of June, and Bell was angry. The anger moved across her mind like a wire being threaded slowly through her veins, millimeter by millimeter. It didn’t flare, the way her anger usually behaved; this time, it was gradual. A steady, ominous rise. As she reminded herself of each galling fact, the anger ticked up a notch, and then a notch past that.

Fact: Her sister Shirley hadn’t been home in three days. Shirley was a grown woman, and the house rules were loose—but still. Three days. And no call, no text.

Fact: The cell on Bell’s bedside table had played its perversely chipper tune just before 3 A.M. On the other end of the line was Amanda Sturm, a deputy sheriff in Collier County. “Got a call ’bout a ruckus over at Tommy’s,” Sturm said after identifying herself. She didn’t have to identify Tommy’s. It was a bar—this bar—out along Burnt Ridge Road, a place notorious for fights and drugs and trouble. “Looked in on things,” the deputy went on, “and got the lay of the land and then figured I oughta give you a call. Sorry ’bout the time.”

She hadn’t awakened her; Bell hardly slept these days, and spent many of her nights sitting up in the battered old easy chair in her living room, reading or trying to. Tonight, she’d actually made it upstairs to bed, but sleep was a nonstarter. Still, though, the call had startled her. “What do you mean?” Bell had asked. Her cell was as light and sleek as a Hershey Bar, yet she used both hands to wrangle it, one to secure it against her ear, the other to keep the bottom half tilted against her chin.

There was a pause, and then the deputy said, “Well, ma’am, one of ’em says her sister is the Raythune County prosecutor and I better lay off. Checked her wallet and sure nuff—you’re listed as contact person. Shirley Dolan’s her name.”

Fact: Commingling with the clientele in a place like Tommy’s could put Shirley in real danger of violating her parole.

Fact: Shirley was well aware of that. She also knew Bell was grappling with a terrible case, the brutal and apparently unprovoked murder of a retired coal miner two nights ago, right in the man’s own driveway on the west side of Acker’s Gap. The town was still reeling from the shock of it, from a crime that had injected a paralyzing chill into the warm, loose-limbed languor of summer in the mountains.

Fact: Shirley didn’t give a rat’s ass. She didn’t care what sort of extra hassle she caused for Bell, what kind of shame or embarrassment or inconvenience.

Fact: Shirley was not only selfish; she was reckless, too. Dropping Bell’s name to a deputy sheriff to garner special treatment was bad enough, but when you added the risk this posed to Shirley’s fledgling status as a free woman—well, the whole thing made Bell so incensed that she wrapped her hands even tighter around the steering wheel of her Ford Explorer, glad to have a way to channel her rage, a place to direct it temporarily.

She’d done everything she could do for Shirley. In the three months since her sister’s return, Bell had given her a place to stay, bought her clothes, tolerated her smoking. And she’d stayed out of her hair, letting Shirley make her own decisions—and by “decisions,” Bell meant “mistakes.” The two words had become synonymous in her mind, when it came to Shirley.

There’d been trouble from the start. One night, Shirley fell asleep in a kitchen chair with a burning cigarette notched between two fingers, jerking awake just in time to avert disaster, and another, she came home drunk and surly, and when Bell tried to guide the weaving woman to a bed, Shirley shook off the helping hand, and the foul word that fell out of her mouth made Bell shudder in shock, as if Shirley had coughed up a toad or a spider.

Such behavior confirmed her sister’s lack of judgment, of manners, of respect, of—well, maybe Sheriff Fogelsong had nailed it. “Lack of gratitude,” he’d said to Bell when she confided her frustration about Shirley. “That’s what’s really eating at you. You expect her to be grateful. Even humble. For sticking by her, for waiting, for taking her in. Plus—ever held a cork underwater? And then let it go? Shoots up like a geyser. Way the hell up in the air.”

The sheriff, Bell quickly decided, had a point. “Ever get tired,” she had countered, “of being right all the damned time?”

His reply: “Oh, I’m wrong on purpose every now and again, just to keep things interesting.”

The recollection of that encounter reminded Bell of how much she missed him—and not just because she was staring straight in the face of an unsolved homicide that had left the town edgy and restive. Fogelsong had taken a month’s leave of absence. He was scheduled to return in the coming week, at which point Pam Harrison would hand back over the top spot and resume her job as chief deputy—but still. Even a short spell without him was too long for Bell. Nick Fogelsong knew her better than anyone else; he understood her right down to the ground, and she appreciated his perspective. Needed it, more to the point.

Shirley, he’d gently remind Bell when her irritation got in the way of sound thinking, was a forty-six-year-old woman who’d never had a chance to be young. She’d been in prison for three decades, and in that bleak and tightly regulated place, every step was monitored, every spontaneous impulse blocked.

So Bell had cut her some slack. Backed off. Held her tongue.

But tonight an entirely new threshold had been crossed. This was the first time Shirley had stayed away for several days running. Or used Bell’s name in a scrape with the law. This was disturbingly fresh territory. And it came at a time when Bell ought to be focusing on public safety in general, not a misbehaving sister in particular. If Shirley was caught up in a sweep at Tommy’s—the bar’s proprietor, Tommy LeSeur, was himself a convicted felon, having served four and a half years on a narcotics charge—her parole could be revoked.

“Hey, pretty lady.”

At the same moment Bell heard the words, she smelled the hot oniony stink of the man who had suddenly thrust his face in the Explorer’s open window. He’d taken her by surprise, so intent was she on her thoughts as she stared at the run-down bar. But she wasn’t frightened. She was pissed off. The man had a fat face, swollen to the point of resembling an allergic reaction. Bristles of beard stuck out from his round cheeks and from the undulating rolls of blubber that propped up his tiny chin. Booze, sweat, and the heavy fug of a recent bout of vomiting invaded her space.

Before Bell could react, he was talking again. He’d hooked his hands across the bottom of the window and hung on as if it were an upper-story sill.

“Lookin’ for somethun?” he slurred. “Or somebody? Wanna party?” A wicked leer seized his mouth, making both ends of it pointy. A pearl of sweat—or maybe another liquid, although who’d really want a positive ID?—was poised on the bottom rim of a nostril. His eyes were bleary. “How ’bout it, baby?”

First Bell wanted to laugh—Oh, yeah, here I come, you’re freakin’ irresistible, mister—and then the anger roared back, this time mixed with revulsion.

“Get the hell away from me,” she said. Low voice. Words measured and calm, but laced with threat. Only a fool would miss her meaning.

“C’mon, baby. Don’t be doin’ me like that,” the intruder said. His oily wheedle—delivered on the back of a gust of smelly breath—was enough to make Bell’s stomach turn.

With a gesture so quick that it caught him in the middle of a wink, she flung open the car door. Knocked back, he teetered for a tenth of a second and then landed flat on his ample butt.

Behind him, starkly visible in the glare of the crude spotlight rigged to a corner of the building, was a stumpy ring of three men—his buddies, Bell assumed, because these types always traveled in packs. The men pointed at Fat Ass and stomped their work boots and laughed, a hard-edged, mirthless laughter that sounded like another variety of assault. They wore baseball caps and long-sleeved plaid flannel shirts with the cuffs buttoned and the shirttails flapping out behind them, even though this was the middle of summer; such, Bell knew, was the year-round uniform of the good ole boys, the kind you could find lining the back roads around here like lint on a comb.

“Bitch!” Fat Ass yelled at her. He’d yet to rise from his seat on the ground, thwarted by, in equal measures, obesity and drunkenness. “Goddamned bitch.”

That only made his friends laugh harder. “Looks like she up and tole you what she thinksa you,” one of them opined, nudging Fat Ass with the toe of his boot, as if his buddy were a clump of dirt that needed relocating. The others re-upped their laughter, hooting like fools, slapping at their knees when they weren’t using their fingers to point at Fat Ass. A gray scab of moon regarded the scene indifferently from above.

Bell pondered her next move. Her mission was simple: Go in the bar, find Shirley, and somehow persuade her to come home. She wasn’t looking for a fight. If these creeps kept it up, though, and interfered with her, she would handle it. Fat Ass didn’t know what trouble was until he’d tangled with the likes of her. Her seventeen-year-old daughter, Carla—currently living with Bell’s ex-husband, Sam, but due back in Acker’s Gap for summer vacation in a week—had put it best: “Mom,” Carla said, “when you get mad, I think I’d sorta rather deal with the guy in the Texas Chain Saw Massacre movies, you know?”

The bar’s double doors flapped open. During the few seconds that the interior of the establishment was exposed—the hot wild noise, the undulating red lights framed by the solid black night—it looked, to Bell’s eye, like a peephole into hell.

A female deputy sheriff—short, hatless, and heavyset—came striding out of Tommy’s, turning this way and that to cut a path between the parked cars. Her long gray hair was funneled into a twisty braid that perched on her shoulder like a pet. Black boots chopped at the gravel with each forceful step. Her gun was holstered on her wide hip, but she kept her big right hand in contact with the grip, a Don’t make me use this set to her meaty jaw.

The three men scattered like scrap paper swept off a desktop by a sudden draft. Fat Ass, also highly motivated, flopped over on his hands and knees and crawled a short distance and then hoisted himself up, courtesy of the rusty back bumper of a Dodge Ram 1500.

As he and his buddies hustled away, the deputy nodded in approval. “Evening, ma’am,” she said to Bell. “Deputy Sturm. Thought you might be arriving right about now.”

“Met the welcoming committee.” Bell stepped out of the Explorer and gestured toward the severe darkness that bordered the lot, a bottomless pit into which the four men had disappeared. The darkness seemed all the more menacing because of its adjacency to the garishly lit space. There was no middle ground. If you left the illuminated area, it was as if you’d fallen off the edge of the world. No dark like summer dark, Bell thought. No end to it. Goes on forever.

She shuddered. She’d had a sudden unwanted memory of the crime-scene photo still on her desk back at the courthouse: Freddie Arnett’s lanky body facedown on the oil-stained concrete of his driveway, blood and brain matter shining wetly in the velvety glow of the front porch light.

“Those boys tried to get friendly with me, too.” Sturm chuckled. With two fingers, she tapped the badge pinned to the left breast pocket of her gray polyester shirt. “Then they saw this.”

Bell nodded. Enough with the small talk. “Where’s Shirley Dolan?”

“Right where I left her—rounded up in the back of the bar with a bunch of troublemakers, waiting to see if I’m going to give ’em even more of a hassle than I already have. Maybe haul ’em in for drunk and disorderly. They’ve been calling me every name in the book and then some.”

“What started it?”

“Don’t know. I mean, Bobo Bolland’s here with his band, and it seems like he brings trouble wherever he goes. Somebody calls somebody else a low-down sumbitch or a man-stealing whore or something similar, and before you know it, the whole place goes crazy.” Two more cars fishtailed into the lot, one right behind the other. The drivers must have caught the glint of the badge on Deputy Sturm’s broad chest—or, the more likely scenario, simply sniffed out the presence of the law after long experience with dodging same—because their hasty U-turns back onto the road were executed with a panic-fed zeal.

Sturm barely noticed. She and Bell had begun walking toward the door of Tommy’s, and something else was on her mind. “Listen,” Sturm said. “Before we go in, I wanted to say—well, I heard about that poor old man. Hell of a thing. Bet folks in Acker’s Gap are plenty shook up.”

Bell nodded. Freddie Arnett had suffered multiple blows to his head from a sledgehammer—that was the coroner’s preliminary analysis, given the shape of the wounds and the fact that the probable murder weapon was lying in the grass next to the driveway—in an astonishingly vicious assault. No prints, no motive, no suspects, no leads; it was, Bell had reflected, almost as if the summer night itself had reared up and come after Arnett, as if the darkness had taken shape just long enough to grab a handy weapon and use it to crush an old man’s skull, then spread itself out again in a soft black ooze.

“Makes you wonder,” Sturm said.


They had reached the entrance to Tommy’s. Bell heard muffled thuds from the other side of the wall, along with wicked guitar licks and fuzzy throbs from a cheap amplifier and the ominous insect hum of packed bodies rubbing up against one another.

Sturm’s big right hand reached for the dirty wooden handle. The upper half of one of the doors was smothered by a thumbtacked white poster that showed off the wobbly work of a black Sharpie:


Bell followed her into the bar—and into the kind of frantic, sweaty bedlam that Bell had spent a good portion of her adult life trying to avoid, because it reminded her too much of her childhood, when the world was big and bad and loud and out of control, and she was the weakest, frailest thing in it. The prey.

* * *

There she was.

Shirley Dolan stood at the far end of the bar, her back to the nicked brown counter that featured what looked to be at least a century’s worth of interlocking rings from wet-bottomed glasses of beer. Long gray hair frizzled down her narrow back. Bell had anticipated that it might take a few minutes to locate her sister in the raucous crowd; she’d thought her eyes might have to rove over at least a dozen or so sweat-shined faces with sloppy grins and pinprick eyeballs—but no. She picked her out right away, even though Shirley was dressed in an echo of what everybody else wore: cowboy boots, tight jeans, T-shirt, untucked flannel shirt.

Shot glass pressed to her lip, Shirley took a long soulful slug. Then she shook herself with gusto, like a dog after a deluge, as the fiery liquid pitchforked its way through her insides. She twisted her torso to thump the glass back down on the bar. It was then—with Shirley in a half turn, licking her bottom lip—that her eyes met up with Bell’s. The three-man band in the opposite corner had just commenced another number, and the blistering bass beats seemed to make the small building shimmy and throb.

Before Bell had a chance to speak, another commotion erupted. Several chairs tipped and crashed, the top rails of their wooden backs clattering against the red concrete floor as people jumped and scattered. Three round tables were upended; glasses slid off and shattered. First one woman screamed, then two more. The band stopped playing—not gradually but abruptly, as if someone had kicked out a power cord.

Jesus, somebody muttered. What the hell, came from somebody else, followed by yet another opinion: Drunk as a goddamned skunk, just like always. Leave him be, why doncha. There was a sudden batch of ear-ripping static from the electric guitar, until the skinny, big-nosed guitar player—having brushed the strings with his sleeve—silenced it again with a hand clamped over the fret.

The crowd parted clumsily, opening up a Z-shaped lane to the source of the tumult. Sprawled facedown on the greasy floor was a wiry, black-haired man in a pale yellow flannel shirt and dirty white carpenter’s pants. Sturm and Bell moved simultaneously to the spot. The deputy, reaching it first, called out sharply, “Hey, mister—you okay?” and then lowered herself to his side with the velocity of a dropped rock. Sturm’s movements, Bell saw, were surprisingly nimble and efficient for a woman her size. She groped under his chin for a pulse. Nothing. With two hands, she turned him over.

An orange-handled screwdriver had been punched into the man’s chest, after which the force of his fall pushed it sideways, ripping the wound wider. A dark stain fled rapidly across the front of his shirt, as ominous as a storm system filling out a digital weather map. His acne-chipped face was white, his jaw slack. Eyes open. Pupils fixed and dilated.

Sturm’s big head swung up to look at Bell. There was a stunned, uncertain quality to the deputy’s stare. When you do this for a living, Bell reminded herself, you always think you’re prepared, but you’re never prepared. Never. Bell felt a swell of nausea cresting in her belly. She fought it, clenching her jaw. And she was aware as well of a cold sense of dread throwing a shadow over her thoughts like a cloud crossing an open field. First the old man back in Acker’s Gap. Now this. Jesus.

The deputy quickly recovered her composure. Still on one knee, she unclipped the radio from her belt and thumbed it on. The bar had grown eerily quiet—no one so much as coughed or shuffled a foot or bumped a table—and that fact gave the few simple words of Sturm’s summons for an ambulance the chiseled mien of a haiku.

Call completed, she barked at the stunned onlookers: “Anybody know this guy? Anybody see what happened? Anybody?”

More silence.

The deputy reached in the dead man’s pocket, hunting for ID. Bell was just about to tell her to back away to preserve the integrity of the crime scene when Sturm pulled out a small white business card. She scanned it, then passed it up to Bell. Can’t matter much at this point, Bell thought, accepting it. There had already been enough contamination of the scene to piss off the state forensic folks, the ones who would be showing up in their fancy van just as soon as the techs back in Charleston finished their argument about whose turn it was to make the drive over crummy roads in the tricky dark. Communities as small as this one didn’t have their own crime-scene units. They had to wait their turn, just as Bell and the deputies had had to wait two nights ago, when they stood, helpless and appalled, alongside Freddie Arnett’s shattered body. And they would have to wait now.

Bell scanned the black embossed letters on the card:


No phone number, no fax, no e-mail address. Strange way of doing business for a law firm, Bell mused. Usually they’re throwing their contact info at you so fast, you have to duck. Her ex-husband worked for that kind of firm. Hell, she’d often thought, given half a chance, he’d probably slap the company logo on the toilet seats in the men’s room. She turned over the card. Along the bottom edge, another name had been hand-scrawled with a blue pen:

Odell Crabtree

Sturm was reaching up now to retrieve the card, because it was evidence. Part of the official record. Bell wanted a longer look, but complied; this was Deputy Sturm’s turf, Deputy Sturm’s investigation. Collier County would be calling the shots. Which was good news: Raythune County had all it could handle right now.

Still, Bell was curious. She wondered what link there could possibly be between a publicity-shy New York City lawyer and a body on the floor of Tommy’s bar in the middle of West Virginia on a sweat-oiled summer night, the life in that body having recently seeped away amid a sour backwash of sloshed beer, bad jokes, loud cackles, high-hanging gray webs of cigarette smoke, and the foot-stompin’, good-time tunes of Bobo Bolland and His Rockin’ Band.


Chapter Two

He was moving around again. She could hear him bumping into things, and with each thump, Lindy winced; she imagined the pain of a knee hitting a box or a cheek scraping a rough wall. But she was reluctant to check on him. She didn’t want to open the basement door and call down into the darkness, “You okay, Daddy?” Not anymore. She had done that at first—in the early days, she had reacted to every noise—and like as not, he’d come roaring up at her, swinging his fists over his head and yelling: “Leave me be! Told you to leave me be!

So now Lindy just listened. Listened hard. In ten minutes, she would have to leave for her overnight shift at the Lester gas station, and she couldn’t be late. Summer Saturdays were a zoo. A twenty-four-hour place in these parts was a magnet for every drunk, every weirdo, and every druggie in a thirty-mile radius; Saturday nights seemed to bring out the crazy even in normal people. But before she left, she had to make sure he was okay.

There were three or four bumps in a row. Then a spell of quiet. That meant, most likely, that he’d gotten his bearings again; his internal radar had mysteriously kicked back in. She pictured him as he moved amid the loose branches and the jumbo rocks. Three years ago, she had dragged in those loads from outside, inch by inch, scavenging them from the ravine out beyond the big hill. She also tracked down, from yard sales and thrift stores, a mess of old wooden tables, chipped and rickety. Some were round, some square, some rectangular; some were as small as TV trays, while others were long enough to host a dozen family members at Sunday supper.

She had made a place for him that was like the place he knew best, the place he loved: a coal mine. The coal mine that had closed down five years ago, leaving him and thirty-two other miners stunned and bereft, not knowing where to go or how to be.

He didn’t walk upright; he crouched. He had to, because long years spent working underground had left his back as curved as a question mark. His habit was to reach ahead in the darkness, swaying from side to side, picking and scrabbling at the hard surfaces that surrounded him, surfaces he sensed rather than saw. He tried to restrict himself to the space under the tables because he liked to stay bent and the tables enabled him to do just that. It was the one position that didn’t hurt. He dozed often, curled in a clenched circle like a barrel stave, and when he first woke, there was always a period of disorientation. Always a span of time during which he’d forget and rise too quickly and—with a furious yelp, because a scalding-hot starburst of pain was born over and over again in that torqued, ruined back of his—ram into the things with which she’d filled the cellar, the tables and the crates and the rocks and the mounds of dirt. He was still a big man, big and solid and strong. When he hit something, you heard it.

Lindy went back to her reading. If she had only ten minutes to go before leaving for her shift, she’d spend it reading. She’d propped up her book against the stack of still more books on the kitchen table. This was her domain now; her father rarely came up to the first floor these days. She had filled his space with what he liked, and so she felt entitled to fill her space with what she liked. And what she liked were books.

The Fabric of the Cosmos. That’s what she was reading. He didn’t like to see her reading. If he were still a regular part of her daylight life, the way he’d been until a few years ago, he might have come up behind her and grabbed the book right out of her hands, holding it up too high for her to snatch back—he wasn’t a tall man to begin with, and forty-seven years in the mines had shortened him even further, but he was still taller than she was. And then he would sidearm the book into the trash can next to the sink. She never said a word. She would cross the small kitchen and pick the book out of the trash, sweeping away the coffee grounds and wiping off the gelatinous white-yellow globs of skillet grease and try not to react. She didn’t want him to see how hurt she was.

He’d always had a temper. A terrible waiting rage that could spring to life the way a flame leaps up when you click on a lighter—just that suddenly, just that easily. From the time she was a little girl, Lindy had learned how to cope, how to deal with his temper, how to walk carefully around it the way you’d sidestep an injured animal along the road, never knowing when it might rally and come after you, all teeth and claws and survival instinct. He hadn’t liked her very much back then. Lindy’s mother loved her—there was no doubt about that—but her father had seemed to hold some obscure grudge against her. He’d accepted her presence, but he didn’t have to be happy about it. Six years ago, the cancer had taken away his wife, Margaret, and now it was just the two of them. Just him and Lindy. And he changed, bit by bit. He softened. Part of it, she knew, was fear—fear of what was happening to him. He needed her. But she didn’t care about the cause. Didn’t mind the fact that it was panic and desperation that drove him into finally being a father. She loved him. And now, it seemed, he loved her, too.

“Something’s happening to me, my girl,” he had said to her, back when it began. “In my head. Clouds. It’s like big black clouds moving in before a storm. Getting between me and what I want to say or do. Clouds. They come and they go. Makes me mad. I can’t think no more. I can’t—” He would stop. Shake his head. Lindy would reach up and lay her hand flat on his chest, and keep her hand right there. He’d close his eyes. The two of them would stay that way for a long while, and he’d be himself again. For a time.

Now he spent most of his days in the cellar. In the place she had built for him three years ago, to calm him down. She’d hauled in the big rocks. She’d stacked up the boxes, arranged the tables and the old barrels. She’d procured the sticks and the scrap lumber, and she’d scattered all of it around the cold dirt floor. Dumped coal here and there. Gravel, too. He wanted it dark, insisted on it, and so she had unscrewed the lightbulb from the overhead fixture. Then she had climbed the stairs back up to the first floor. Closed the door behind her.

He spent his time in a blackness that matched the blackness rising inside him. Except for the occasional thumps and groans, she didn’t hear much from him. She knew he came up the stairs at night. She’d find the results in the morning: A box of Kellogg’s Corn Flakes with the top flap torn off and three-quarters of the contents gone, courtesy of a frantic plunging hand that spilled half its load on the floor on its way to his mouth. Melon rinds, with an unevenly spaced row of shallow dents marking the spots where his remaining teeth had gnawed at the sweet meat. And a sick-making, dizziness-inducing smell from the sink, where he sometimes emptied his bucket, not bothering to run the spigot to rinse the feces and urine down the drain. She had to disinfect the sink daily with Clorox. The smell was like having fingers poked in your eyes.

Two and a half years ago, the last time he’d let her take him anywhere, the doctor at the Raythune County Medical Center—the only neurologist left in the area who would see Medicare patients—had been blunt with her: “Your father has significant and chronic health issues in addition to the neurological deficits, including emphysema and congestive heart failure. There’s no way to tell how long he might survive. The end could be fast, or it could be slow.” What the doctor didn’t say, but allowed Lindy to extrapolate from the silence that descended on the beige-walled room after his pronouncement, was this: Given his current mental state, fast might be better. She had nodded, and then she helped her father get down from the examination table. She tried to help him put on his jacket—he kept ramming his fist in the wrong armhole—but he smacked at her hands and cursed her.

The only place her father was comfortable now was the past. The past, for him, meant the Acer Mine No. 40, twenty-seven miles out on Route 6 in rural Raythune County, where he’d worked his shift well into his sixties, tilted like a tree pushed from behind by a permanent hurricane.

Lindy was just finishing up Part IV of The Fabric of the Cosmos. She loved the book—it was all about space and time and gravity, things you could measure, things that rewarded your deep thinking about them by proving to be solid and comprehensible, unlike things such as your feelings and your family—but now she had to stop. Time to get ready for work. She was the night manager at the station, a job she’d held since her graduation from Acker’s Gap High School two years ago.

Another thump.

She waited. No more noise. No yelling. Good. He probably hadn’t hurt himself, then. No reason for her to open the basement door and call down to him, asking if he was okay, a gesture that might very well be met with a yip and a snarl. Her father was in a nasty mood today, restless and surly, knocking things over and bellowing about it. He’d probably heard the mail truck earlier and was riled by the sound. He didn’t like anybody coming by the house. But there wasn’t a bookstore within a hundred miles of here. What she wanted, she had to buy online and have shipped. She’d ordered enough books to take her all the way through next fall. The white-haired, scraggly browed postman, Perry Crum, his sixty-two-year-old body scrunched up like a lumpy quarter-moon after so many decades of lugging heavy mail sacks back into the hollows of rural Raythune County, often teased her about it; if he had the time, Perry would drag the heavy carton of books inside for her, even though he wasn’t required to, and as he lifted it onto the kitchen table, he’d say, “Heavier’n a box of rocks! Sure wish you were collecting crocheted pot holders instead of books.”

He was teasing. He didn’t really mind. In fact, Perry Crum talked to her about the books she read because he, too, was interested in science; he’d planned to be a biology major in college, but in the end he couldn’t go, because he had to take care of his sister Ellie, who had Down syndrome. Their parents were long dead, and there was no one else to do it. He mentioned his family situation to Lindy just once, and only in passing. It was not the kind of thing that people in these parts talked about. Your burdens were your burdens. Everyone had them. It was a given.

Last month, Lindy’s father had been in the kitchen on the day when Perry came in with a carton of books. Perry smiled and waved. Her father glared darkly, his lip raised in a snarl.

“Daddy, you know Perry Crum,” Lindy said. She patted the top of the square cardboard box, which Perry had dropped on the kitchen table. “He brought my books. You remember Perry.”

Her father growled something indecipherable. Putting a twisted-up hand on the kitchen wall to steady himself, he groped and lurched to the basement door. He didn’t look back at the postman or his daughter. His journey down was a heavy and solemn one, each step a separate chunk of thunder that made the staircase shimmy.

A wince of concern had redistributed the wrinkles on Perry’s face. “You okay here, Lindy?” he said.

“Fine. Really.”

And she was. She could take care of herself. She’d been doing it for a long time. Even before her father got to be the way he was, he had worked long hours at the mine. Came home practically comatose with exhaustion.

Lindy looked around for a bookmark. There was a stack of mail at her elbow, mail from the past week or so because she always put off going through it, envelopes thick and thin, mostly white but in a variety of sizes, plus slick flyers from the discount stores up on the interstate.

She grabbed the envelope on the top of the heap. Her father still received mail from time to time. Nothing of a personal nature. Junk mail mainly, along with Social Security and Medicare bulletins, although Lindy had long ago arranged to have his meager retirement income direct-deposited, and she used that to pay the mortgage. Otherwise, she never touched his money. She bought her books with her own salary.

The letter—she stuck it in the book to designate her place between pages 376 and 377, giving the envelope a glance as she did so—looked like another blind solicitation from some company wanting him to buy something he didn’t need. New York City postmark. In the center, in the space for the recipient’s information, was her father’s name and address in typed black letters:




Copyright © 2014 Julia Keller.

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Julia Keller spent twelve years as a reporter and editor for the Chicago Tribune, where she won a Pulitzer Prize. A recipient of a Nieman Fellowship at Harvard University, she was born in West Virginia and lives in Chicago and Ohio.

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